when there's no getting over that rainbow

I.. I love you all. ♥♥♥♥♥ I've really never felt happier checking my inbox, seeing the influx of Get Well Soons. I'm so touched and grateful. Will get to replying to all of those soon!

Well, most of this entry will probably be boring so feel free to skip my surgery-talk. Haha.

Mkay, well I'm back home now. I stayed overnight at the hospital for two nights and was able to be released on Friday. Let me just say, after the surgery was just hell. I've never felt so vulnerable, sick to my stomach, and helpless all at once. I had this giant towel-thing wrapped around my head called the Jaw Bra (LOL) and it weighed a ton. I usually sleep on my side so adjusting to sleep on my back wasn't too fun. The first night was the worst. I ended up vomiting blood twice but felt so much better afterward. And don't ask me why but every time I think about it now, I can only relate it to Ni no Arashi. *facepalm* Ohno's face portrayed exactly what my mom looked like.

I've decided to never become a nurse. It's way too strenuous and I could never stay so happy. I've bothered the nurses way too often in the middle of the night and such. I once had extreme problems breathing because my nostrils were clogged and my throat got dry. Oh man, the entire hospital stay was just uncomfortable. I played a little on my DS but it got painful after a while 'cause the IV was pricking into my left wrist. D: But I'm so glad I brought my mp3 player because blasting Arashi out of the tiny earphones works like magic.

EATING.. Well, I can't even call it that. I'm on a liquid-only diet right now so all I can do is suck up liquids from a plastic syringe. To me, the most painful part of the surgery is not being able to eat. My stomach churns constantly because of the weird mixture of liquids. And Ensure, is well, not that yummy. D: I'm hoping I'll be able to get rid of these jaw bands soon and move on to a soft foods diet at least and put the blender to good use.

As for appearance, I still have these ginormous cheeks and huge lips because the swelling hasn't gone down yet. I don't even recognize myself anymore. It's like, Who is this person with Kappa lips?! Haha. Luckily, I don't have to wear that Jaw Bra anymore. As for talking, I can sort of make noises and hope for the best that someone in the house understands my nonsense. Lol. So a good thing is I don't have to use a notepad much anymore.

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I can already tell I'm going to be sucked in to obsession with Maou. After watching the CMs and Ousama Buranchi for the nth time, I just can't stop. AND, did I mention Truth sounds AMAZING?! It does. Ohno already sounds gorgeous on his solos. I love shiny-on-the-rainbow Arashi songs but this one is just.. aadgj;hdsgh A-amazing. Like oh god.. *loops trailer* This Maou tag will be abused, a lot.

So summer government isn't all that bad. I thought it'd be a terribly long 3.5 hours a day but it actually goes by at a nice rate. The driving is crazy though. It's about 30 minutes there and 30 minutes back from my house. Eesh, there goes my gas. And so far I've gotten an A on every assignment which is great. After my report card this last semester, I'm gonna need all the A's I can get.

Good thing is that we get a field trip! To the city courthouse of all places. My dad showed me the way today but it still won't be the same. I don't like going downtown. I don't like one-way streets. I'm not even a good driver.

I've ordered my ice cream cake for my birthday party Friday. It'll be exactly the same as last year's though. XD I'm so unoriginal. Tomorrow I still have to order the Chinese food too. Mm, lo mein.

I also wanted to get a part-time job this summer after government, but sadly I'm most likely going to intern at my optometrist's office. Gotta think about my future but money sounds really good. T_T

My parents and I also stopped by my oral surgeon's office to get the 411 on my surgery date. I was supposed to have it done this summer. That got delayed to either Thanksgiving break or Christmas break. Now I find out that next summer is a more "realistic option." Gah, I wanted this over and done with. This pretty much canceled our plans of going back to Vietnam next year. Family trip.